: bloom

[malcolm villamore]

Me either, shit sounds scary. I would doubt she was ours, ha. But she finally learned. Show me any pictures you take, I hope it's good weather there and all too. It's been cool, second day in San Francisco just hangin with some homies over here. The Kaleidoscope Fest was dope.

[ayla villamore]

I think my grandpa is getting it.. At least that's what my mom mentioned to me last night. Haven't had the courage yet to plan a time to see him though. Haha, me too. Is that bad?! I think it should be pretty warm. Or i'm hoping, so I don't freeze my ass off when i'm shooting by the beach. Not getting into too much trouble are you? c; But glad you are getting some time to visit. Any other plans for the rest of your stay there? You better have taken photos or video!

[malcolm villamore]

Forreal? Damn. He needs some good care then, medicine's always changing and the technology's catchin up. We should visit, at least for the holidays. Ha nah, but we would probably wouldn't ever stop trying to get her in the water. So it's just straight swimsuits or what? And tryin not to, I'm being good. Really vibin though, writing down some ideas and verses. Love this place. Maybe gonna hit up some other fests or events going on, see if they got any good underground game. I'll bring you back a lot.

[ayla villamore]

Yea, and of all people too. He is such an energetic man, loving his music and helping create it. Now he struggles to even remember song names, it makes me so sad. I hope they can do something to help. Maybe.. but I really don't want to bawl my eyes out if he starts forgetting. Forcing her to like it, haha. What great parents we aree. c; Swimsuits and a few dresses and regular clothes. It's just for a Lookbook. And then I get to hop back on a plane to London and get behind the camera! I know you are babe, doesn't mean I don't want you to have fun thoughhh. Really? Can't wait to hear any new songs you come up with. I've been listening to your music on and off this whole trip here. I swear it's a serious comfort when i'm away. That and looking at the little drawing Aria made me last year for Mother's Day. San Francisco and the Bay Area in general is obviously good for that stuff, so do itttt. The more creative places, the better. Good!

[malcolm villamore]

That's a damn shame. You never know though, he could get better. He's probably fightin it real hard. Shit, we'd be worse parents if we didn't and she ended up with a water phobia all her life. Sounds chill, nothing too stressful hopefully. Then you gotta really bring it in London. Yea it's comin together ok, I think you might like the stuff I got so far. Some collaborations in the talks too, there's a lot of young new game coming out every day I swear. Love the smokin vibe too.

[ayla villamore]

Why couldn't it just be Martha? If anyone deservers that struggle, it's her. This is true! I was talking with my hairstylist last night, and she mentioned that her son can't swim. And he's 14! How is that even okay? I think all kids should know how to swim. It can save their life one day. Nah, nothing stressful. I've been at this too long, it almost makes me cringe when I hear someone say veteran. ): It makes me feel 75! London is definitely where i'm going to put some extra energy. Just as long as my phone doesn't blow up about anything going wrong at the gallery and auction house. I mean, I believe in Katrina and Claude's ability to do their jobs, but I still can't help but worry. I'm such a I-sleep-with-my-blackberry girl, it's so sadddd. I'm sure I will, babe. Any new themes you're going for? I love that you're willing to look at up and coming talent too, and help them out. Not many people do these days, and there are so many great ones. Let's hope it becomes legalized everywhere soon, so we can enjoy it anywhere!

[malcolm villamore]

Yea it's funny how that shit works. But I guess you can't wish it on nobody, sometimes it just happens and it sucks. Like with my ma. Damn, forreal? That's weird. At that point you gotta do something, it's never really too early. Even at that age. Veteran model? Can't be a bad thing, just means you got your shit under your belt. And you still gettin jobs and runways. You need to stop worrying, you told me you couldn't sleep for like a week before you left already. Gotta handle that. You can't be everywhere at once. Some more throwback stuff, channelin old funk and R&B. Then lookin at these new kids and their shit. I bet it will, and even if not there's still like an unspoken code. A cop's gonna bust you on harder shit than just smokin some trees.

[ayla villamore]

Yeah. The good ones always leave us too soon.. Right? But you'd be surprised how many adults and kids nowadays don't know how to swim. It's actually scary. Yeah I know, but I still feel old to still be at this. Even though it's this addiction I never knew i'd have, especially after getting so annoyed with it when I was at it constantly a couple years ago. Totally ate my own words, saying i'd never do this again! Talk about Xanax as my dinner, maybe that'll help keep this worry at bay. I wish I could though, but I know it's me just liking to be in charge. So it's hard to give over power, because i'm so OCD about things. Excited! That sounds like the perfect route. Bringing back the real music. True, plus it's always kind of fun knowing you're doing something illegal every now and then. Or in our case, everyday. c;

[malcolm villamore]

It'll be okay, Ay. Shit, that's too crazy. That's like your parents not teaching you how to ride a bike neither. If I got something to teach Aria I'm gonna teach her, simple as. Why you doin it now then? Real good brand and all? Just gotta have a good time at least, aite? Ha right, until smoking my weed becomes punishable by life in prison, I don't care about any cop lookin at me sideways.

[ayla villamore]

I know, I just hate anyone I love being sick. Right? But so many parents still do it, I think it's totally bad parenting. So glad we're willing to teach Aria anything and everything. She's going to be multi talented before she's 10! I guess I still like the artistic vibe to a lot of the shoots I pick now. And I like that I can pick and choose and not have to rely on every single photoshoot as like, my career boost or livelihood. Plus, as much as I love working with more well know artists, I love helping out new photographers and fashion designers trying to make a name for themselves too. I will, don't worry. Sightseeing always relaxes me too. Ha, that's the spirit!

[malcolm villamore]

You gotta stay strong so he can too.Fuckin Amish weirdos probably. She's gonna be everything type of threat. Yea, you gotta really go in your head to find something new and different that'll stand out against all the other stuff. Fashion can get weird as hell too. They got a lot of churches and all, right? You ain't gonna be in danger with all this Syria bullshit are you?

[ayla villamore]

So easy to say, so hard to do lately. Speaking of Amish, have you seen Amish Mafia the television show? I can't even with it! c; Fashion is all about creativity, but it's true, sometimes some peoples visions are just so questionable, i'm not sure if people know where to draw the line anymore. They do, but i'm not going to go in any, even though they are pretty to look at from the outside. And I won't bring too much attention to myself, unnecessarily! So far Turkey has been lovely to me though, but i'll be on my guard still. Maybe i'll rethink that late night walk too… unless I go with someone. But I'm only staying for a short time, so i'm sure i'll be fine. I won't go getting myself interrogated by their neighbors or anything, babe. Promise.

[malcolm villamore]

Ha nah but I heard about it. Shit can't be real, right? No lines anymore really, people always trying to push em. Meat dresses and shit, like come on. There's being artistic then being crazy. You're gonna have fun and kill the shoot, I know it.

[ayla villamore]

You must watch! Just one episode, you'll die. It has to be fucking fake, there is no way the Amish can be thugs. c; I thought they were peaceful. Gaga is something else, i'm not really sure what. But.. she's something. And that's not even a compliment! I love the people who define themselves as fashionistas but have no clue how to dress their body shape. Like my friend Sissa, who now manages my mom's boutique. She stopped talking to me for almost a month for sending her on What Not To Wear, but I mean, she looks great now. So she obviously thanks me! Thanks, babe. I just wish we weren't gone at the same time.. I feel off without you or Aria with me. But maybe it's good at the same time, so I don't go turning into some clingy wife!

[malcolm villamore]

Man I don't wanna be contributing any money to them like that though. I thought they hated TV and technology and shit, like they still live 300 years ago. Almost as bad as the trailer trash shows. Yea exactly, I ain't gonna call myself no fashionisto but I trust your judgment. You been in the business inside and out, every aspect. I feel off too. Like anytime we had together last wasn't long or good enough, just need more. Clingy ain't bad like us though.