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[atlas leblanc]

Atlas... Atlas Rose LeBlanc. Born March 4, 1993 in New York. She's 5'9" with green eyes, blonde hair. She's a member of the Bank of America and her Visa expires this December. She's a Starbucks member, and has a total $53.87 in bills and change. She's a student at Columbia. You'd know this too if you had her wallet. The truth is, other than what's on paper, I don't know too much about Atlas. She has an apartment in the West Village, and is a student at Columbia, for what? I couldn't say, she might have told me. She wears heels, likes an expensive cocktail, and attends fashion week, but you can understand that by wizzing through her Instagram.. You can see just by looking at her that she has money, and isn't shy to use it. In fact, that's one thing she's not - shy. The first one to dive in to the water bravely, or approach a guy, to have the nerve to say yes to this project. She gives off a stubborn vibe, and has a wall that takes five minutes to tear down and convince. What people love about Atlas is what they see on the outside; the smile, the nice shoes, the fresh slang tumbling from her massive lips, her trendiness. Scratch at the surface and she'll show you she has a short temper, a love for One Direction, she can be irritating, and a bit of a liar. Dig at the surface, well.. we'll see what I find out.

Cillian is the problem with guys in New York. What is it, a 1:10 ratio of guys to girls? He's the guy your girlfriends sit and talk about over lunch, the one who took you to a nice dinner, you thought it went well, then all of the sudden, he's escorting himself to the bathroom; only, he's not going to the bathroom, he's heading to the bar to ask the hot blonde on a date tomorrow night. He charms you for .5 seconds, then bothers you for the next ten minutes, and the cycle repeats. But it's ok, because he's good looking -god, is he good looking-, and the English accent sets him aside from the others that do the same. But he's fun, he only takes himself seriously sometimes, and isn't the self-absorbed finance type. In fact, by profession he "writes" for Rolling Stone. Therefore, he thinks his taste in music is superior. I'll admit it here and now, there are a few good songs he's relayed. And currently, he's addicted to Bear's Den. When he gets off of work, going home bothers him because his dad crashes at his place and raids his Cheeto stash, so to make himself feel better, he'll leave and do the same thing at your place. A bit of a hypocrite, if you can't tell. PS- He said yes to doing this first.

<sup>1. We will see each other every day for twenty days.
2. We will fill out the daily questionnaire and document everything.
3. We will go on at least three dates a week.
4. We will go on one weekend trip together.
5. We will not see, date, hook up, or have sex with anyone else.</sup>

[atlas leblanc]

Why did you participate in this experiment? AL: Honestly, I was drunk and easily swayed into it. I’m still not too sure I get it, but there’s no backing out now. And the second Cillian thought he could kill it, and do this better, I wanted to prove that I could kill it even better. Do you like dating? AL: Not particularly. I like being single, or I like having a boyfriend. Not the weird in between state where you’re unsure where the other person stands. Dating also feels like it’s for forty year olds who’ve been single forever and are going through bunches of different people to see which you may want to trap in. Nooooo thank you. When was your last serious relationship? How did it end? AL: It was about eight months ago, but I’d say it was really over a couple months before we called it quits. He told me I “deserved better.” Aka, the biggest cop out in America. What do you think about Cillian’s current dating life? AL: I don’t know much about Cillian’s dating life other than the fact that he began sleeping with me while in the midst of some relationship with some foreign, exotic girl. I didn’t know at the time, so sue me. I get the vibe he bounces around like that. What do you love about being single? What do you hate? AL: I like being able to do what I want, when I want, how I want. You see? There are a whole lot of I's there. Since there's been no time machine invented yet, I'll never be twenty again, so if there's going to be something making me miss these years, it better be a good something. As for what I hate.. Fall nights, when you want to take a walk around Central Park with your boyfriend, not your best friend, or sit at a cute little cafe with him, go home consistently with him, things like that. Are your parents together? What is their relationship like? AL: My parents are together, and they have been for about twenty-six years. My dad works a lot, my mom is a bit self-absorbed. And that's all I'll say in case this link ever gets forwarded on to them or his colleagues. Do you think your parent's situation directly influences your relationships? AL: No. I moved to Switzerland for boarding school when I was fourteen, and once that schooling was over I never moved back in. So luckily, I didn't have to witness much of any relationship. If anything at all, they've been the poster for what not be. What do you think it means to love someone? AL: It’s pretty simple, to give yourself to someone fully. Emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually, the whole nine yards. Are you nervous about this experiment? AL: Kind of, not really, a bit. It should be interesting, but I suppose it could also go bad. I guess we'll have to see. I mostly feel uneasy over it.

Why did you participate in this experiment? CM: Partially peer-pressure and partially curiousity. There were a couple of people egging me to do it, but a lot who were trying to convince me against the idea. The latter made me want to do it more, to prove them wrong. I'm also a bit curious to test my limit; usually I'm the backseat passenger in the drama, I've never ridden shotgun... not that this is going to be dramatic, no no, Atlas isn't dramatic at all. Do you like dating? CM: To an extent. I like meeting different women; the crazy ones, the shy ones, the funny ones, the sadistic type. I'm very easily attracted; my only turn off is poor hygiene. Atlas calls me charming, but I'm very easily charmed as well, I'd say yes to any woman I was approached by. There's something sexy about confidence that excuses flaws within the boundary of a first date. Second date is a different story; easily charmed but I get bored. When was your last serious relationship? How did it end? CM: I had a three year relationship in high school which carried on till college, so four years ago. We loved each other very much, but the long-distance thing didn't suit either one of us. There were obstacles and needs in both our lives at the time that we couldn't complete by being in a relationship, there was a lack of flexibility, and I couldn't give her the attention she deserved. Naturally we fell apart, we're still friends though. What do you think about Atlas’ current dating life? CM: Atlas has a guy's name tattooed under the belt.. I've teased her about it, but she gets all-bitter. She's the type of person who documents her every thought on social media, so I can only assume she doesn't date as often as I do. She'll end up a lonely cat lady, yea. What do you love about being single? What do you hate? CM: The no strings thing. I can move anywhere without feeling I'm leaving someone behind. I'm fucking young and I want to do the whole 'experience the world' bullshit. The only woman I have to worry about it my mum. I don't have to buy an elaborate birthday gift, or plan Valentine’s Day. The downside being is that it can be a bit more difficult finding a date for a wedding, or if I want to get laid ASAP. Are your parents together? What is their relationship like? CM: I was the result of a one night stand. My parents never loved each other, or gave a relationship an attempt. My mum considers my father a stranger, but did allow him to take part in my life. Do you think your parent's situation directly influences your relationships? CM: Somewhat. My mum ended up marrying a much older man for security rather than feelings, dad's been married twice and is always going on about 'the one that got away' when he was a teenager. Neither one has had success in their relationships; I don't exactly try in mine. The divorce rate of this generation is exceedingly high. What do you think it means to love someone? CM: To give yourself wholeheartedly to another being. To have a shared bank account and not have to worry. To share the covers on the bed, and have that other person be the only one you are intimate with. To give someone the clicker with full faith that they will choose the right program to watch. To leave the toilet seat down after you are done. To never judge for decisions made, and to stand up for this other person. When the going gets rough, ya just have to fight a bit harder. To love someone is to commit, I think.. really I'm just getting most of this from Lily and Marshall from HIMYM and Fred and Wilma from the Flintstones. Are you nervous about this experiment? CM: Yea. Mostly nervous about the manslaughter that will inevitably occur.

[atlas leblanc]

DAY 1 - Atlas LeBlanc

Did you see Cillian today?

I sure did.


What did you do together?

We finally went on the date we were supposed to go on last Saturday. I met him by the L, and we walked to Crif Dogs. The walk took longer than usual because apparently he’s never seen the dog park on the way, so we were those two people lingering without dogs, looking like a form of dog pedophiles. Finally we got there, it was jam packed so I saved the table and he ordered. I told him to order for me, even though I know what I like there, it felt like the date thing to do? And he picked my fave! The BLT dog. He got the Sour Cheese dog, which I was repulsed by, and the Tsunami… Anyway, we took our time, sat and tried to not be so full for a few minutes. Then I told him the blue slushies were through the telephone booth, and I’d meet him in there. I figured it was well-deserved payback for being a bit of a dick last week, and I waited outside until they inevitably told him he couldn’t be there. I waited outside, and finally he came out. Plan backfired; the hostess liked him, and found him two seats at the bar. I told him I had a better idea, if he wanted to see the best Manhattan sunset ever. He agreed, and we went to The James. Luckily, he didn’t put two and two together, and realize it was the first Saturday of Fashion Week, and obviously The James would have something going for it. We stayed for a few hours then went back to my place.


Did anything interesting happen?

He was really immature about the big hot dog and "eat me" sign. And well, he wasn’t too happy about the after party. You could tell he thought it was all a bit pretentious. So he found a new home at the bar, which was at least open. Moral of the story, he was wasted before midnight.


Did you learn anything new about Cillian?

If he doesn’t want to go somewhere or be somewhere, he acts out. In an immature, prove his point kind of way. Only he does it for an hour, makes it clear, and gets over it. Also, Tequila’s his shot of choice, mine too.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

I guess all the dates I’ve been on before were either with my boyfriend, or someone I didn’t know all that well. It’s more enjoyable when you already know enough of the person, and don’t have to sit through the whole tell me about yourself shit.


Is there anything you want to do differently?

Too soon to tell.


Additional comments?

Not today!

[cillian mcallister]

DAY 1 - Cillian McAllister

Did you see Atlas today?

Yea


What did you do together?

Well, we were supposed to go out last Saturday, but Atlas is so unreliable. Anyway, she insisted on going to this hot dog joint, begged practically, so I took her there. We went to the dog park first - which I've never been to - and that was pretty exciting. It only fed my need to own a dog, dog people are 38% happier than cat people. I could tell Atlas was annoyed, but the detour never would have occurred if she had not refused to take the cab. When we got to the restaurant she demanded a particular seat, completely rejected having any other seat... She was all, "we need this table, Cill. I'll stare at these people like I'm Winona Ryder from Little Women and intimidate them out of our seats." She did that, and by using telepathy I ordered her favorite hot dog (bonus points!!!!!). After we ate Atlas tried to fuck with me and sent me down to the bar to get us a couple of drinks while she went to the bathroom. Apparently, you have to make reservations, which I wasn't aware of. The hostess and I flirted (I checked, the rules say nothing about such behavior), she not only agreed to let us in, but gave me her number. The shock on Atlas' face was well worth it.. I felt triumphant, until she claimed she'd rather see the sunset. By "the sunset" she meant "Fashion Week", and I'd rather slit my wrists than watch half starved aliens stomping in a line with over ten grand worth of clothing on their backs. But I didn't have a razor handy, I had a bar and many shots of tequila. Then we went home and fucked. Kidding. I passed out before that happened.


Did anything interesting happen?

Atlas knows a lot of people. While I was in my own world ignoring pretentious douchebags, she was socializing with them. I'm sure she tried to introduce me to several. The James also has the worst sunset I've ever seen, the horizon is filled with seven foot aliens and old douchebags in suits.


Did you learn anything new about Atlas?

Atlas has OCD, likes buying clothes rather than investing in something real ie: a house or life insurance, and her favorite past time is "let's do this" "just joking, FASHION WEEK!!!11!"


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

Clif Dogs is my new favorite place to be.. and the first date went better than anticipated, despite being under dressed for NYFW. GASP!!!!!!!!


Is there anything you want to do differently?

Less clothes next time.

I didn't mean it that way.


Additional comments?

Oh. And Atlas let me do a body shot off her neck.

[cillian mcallister]

DAY 2 - Cillian McAllister

Did you see Atlas today?

I sure diddly-did


What did you do together?

I worked, and she had class, but we tried to make it so we were both free that evening. I didn't end up being available to go out, I had someone coming in to look at my flat because I'm moving at the end of the month and the landlord was busy at the time. Atlas came to mine to help clean.. but she wasn't really much help. Atlas' way of cleaning is to sit on top of the counter top and blab away, while I slave like Betty fucking Draper's maid. Though when the people came to look she really took charge, she showed them around, really sugar coated everything while I stood back and watched. After that shit, I made dinner. Grilled cheese, don't get too excited. And we laid, some might say cuddled, on the couch and watched Fight Club. I sent her home after she claimed she doesn't sleep with guys till the third date.


Did anything interesting happen?

Atlas brought over cronuts.. they are ungodly. she also broke a vase, and dropped her sandwich so I had to make her another.


Did you learn anything new about Atlas?

She'd make a poor housewife, I'm not sure if she knows how to clean.. I'm sure she does, I just don't think she's motivated. I'm fairly similar, I make sure the place is clean when people are over, but usually the place is a bit cluttered with coffee mugs and clothes. I know I shouldn't be surprised, but I was with her ability to be a leader and take charge that way. Where I would be a sarcastic asshole, she was very professional. Atlas has never seen Fight Club before tonight, and is a prude.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

I hate people, I felt really protective over my flat and wanted to tell this couple to fuck right off.


Is there anything you want to do differently?

More organization.


Additional comments?

It's difficult to make time between our social lives, career, and education.

[atlas leblanc]

DAY 2 - Atlas LeBlanc

Did you see Cillian today?

Obvi.


What did you do together?

We decided to call it a hang night, not a date night. And when I say we, I mean him. Cillian is moving apparently, but won’t tell me where! He assured me that this experiment would still be possible though, so that’s all that matters. Anyway, I went over to his place after classes and what not. He was in serious Mr. Clean mode, I swear, I’ve never seen that place so clean before. He kept looking at me like he expected me to help, but I figured my entertaining him was enough. The bell rang, the couple fled in, he seemed really uncomfortable.. but luckily, I’ve watched enough HGTV to know how to sell a space, so I played that whole role. After he nearly forced the cute little couple out, he made us grilled cheese. It was delicious, could have ate two, but that would have been super fat so I refrained. Afterward came the battle of what movie to watch. I suggested Seven Pounds, he suggested Fight Club. And in that moment of disagreement I remembered last nights pity party over not getting his way, so I let him win for tonight. He’s the narrating type of movie watcher, since I’d never seen it.. he was all, “pay attention to this part” “oh you’re gonna love this” “watch, Atlas!” “are you watching?” “are you sleeping?” I did doze off for a second, somewhere between the cuddling and kissing, one comforting method there. Whatever, we watched, I left.


Did anything interesting happen?

The aforementioned cute couple told us we were a cute couple. I then told the lady he was giving up the space to move in with me, she loved it. Cillian’s face on the other hand…. Priceless.


Did you learn anything new about Cillian?

He’s funny because he’s all, “girls are so annoying, they say they want to watch a movie then they just want to spoon” with the boys, then get him on a couch, and he puts his arms all around you. I’m not complaining though, it was really sweet. Like really, really. Speaking of which, he’s pretty manipulative. He does it all at the right moment, all of the time. It makes me wonder if he’s stupid, or smarter than I give him credit for.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

Showings are fun; I think I may have to reconsider my major.


Is there anything you want to do differently?

Never leave Brooklyn alone at 2 in the morning ever again.


Additional comments?

It’s only day 2, but I’m still surprised it’s not gone to shit yet. Cillian gets a 10 for today.

[atlas leblanc]

DAY 3 - Atlas LeBlanc

Did you see Cillian today?

Yessir.


What did you do together?

He came by my place around eight. I was showering; he hung out with Eden for a bit. Then once I was ready the three of us sat around, Eden decided she was a know it all and told us we were doing this whole thing wrong (because apparently she invented it?) and that it was “twenty days of dating, not hanging out.” So to help the experiment, she left in a pissy mood. I didn’t feel like going out, so we took a walk to the corner bodega and got some beer, and an overload of snacks. Because what is better on a Sunday night than that? I decided we should milk what was left of the decent weather and head up to the rooftop. Don’t be fooled though, it’s not the comfiest of rooftops, so we brought my entire bed, sans the mattress, up with us. We smoked a bit, then ate a bit, then drank a bit, then fooled around a bit more than a bit. And then we pretty literally talked and cuddled and smooched ‘til the sun started coming up. He’s actually still sleeping next to me.


Did anything interesting happen?

We held hands on the walk to the bodega. That was my doing. Super interesting.


Did you learn anything new about Cillian?

A whole lot! We had a nice little round of “tell me something no one knows about you” drunkenly on the roof. Also my doing. Eden’s failure talk kind of annoyed me, and I figured it was a step in the right direction. He was a bit of a dick about it at first. He prefers coke over pepsi (who doesn’t?) fall over winter (me too) instagram over twitter (pretentious) & he’s a mix of outdoorsy and indoorsy (bogus). Beyond that, he told me about his mom or “mum” should I say, who I’d never realized he didn’t mention often before. Her profession, her and his dad’s relationship. Why he took his job, and no, it’s not just because who wouldn’t want to write for Rolling Stone. And to put things in my own words, I think he like relationships more than he lets on, because he’s scared of them. Crucify me if I’m wrong, but that’s my take, and I think it’s pretty endearing. All in all, it was probably the most real talk we've had, even considering before this whole experiment, and what I learned definitely made a few things click.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

Well this morning Eden said… is this the Eden show? Anyway, she said I’m a situational person. I asked what that meant, and she thinks things I do and like change depending on who I’m with the most. And you know where she got this?! It offended her that I was playing Agape and not Wrecking Ball this morning.. like really.. get real.

Side note: she might be right. Noted.


Is there anything you want to do differently?

Not at the moment.


Additional comments?

1. He dropped the babe bomb a couple times. I liked it.
2. Can he read this? That would be embarrassing..
3. That’s all folks.

[cillian mcallister]

DAY 3 - Cillian McAllister

Did you see Atlas today?

Yep.


What did you do together?

I had made dinner reservations, and we'd planned on maybe seeing a movie, so I went to pick her up around eight. When I got there, she was still in the shower (big surprise there), so I got to hang around with her roommate. I don't know her name, it might be Eden but it might be twat-faced-whore, I don't remember since she was being such a twat-faced-whore to me. She's always harbored hate for me, apparently I'm a 'man-slut' and she doesn't like my vibe or what I'm doing with Eden. Man-slut!!?! I'm offended by such dreadful terminology! The conversation didn't end when Atlas entered the room, if anything her being there fueled the fire. When twat-faced-whore left Atlas was visibly upset, so I suggested we picked up beer and food and stayed in. Stay in, we did not. As per Atlas' demands, we wound up on the rooftop, the freezing cold rooftop. I could see my fucking breath, I drooled icicles, it was that cold. Beer, joints, clodhoppers, and mild cuddling managed to keep me warm, not to mention mass amounts of blankets and two pairs of socks. We talked a lot, made out, and got absolutely smashed.


Did anything interesting happen?

Monday morning was rough. Atlas fell asleep on top of me and weighs more than she looks, it was near impossible for me to escape. Especially when she said 'waffles'.


Did you learn anything new about Atlas?

Atlas wanted to play this game (game or mind fuck, or are they the same?) that required us to spill all sorts of juicy secrets. Like how she was arrested as a kid for pissing in an alleyway, like some sort of stray dog.. which is fucking hilarious since when I was seventeen I was almost arrested for lifting my leg to the Ferdinand Foch statue in London. And she went to boarding school, in Switzerland (I think...), I always figured she had a reason to be so prissy. She caught her dad cheating on her mum when she was young, and that genuinely made me feel like a bit of an ass for discussing my careless infidelities with her. It makes sense that she was so offended when I brought it up, I'll try do less of that. Her most recent boyfriend dumped her with little reason. The way she talks about him it's like she still hasn't moved onto the next frame, she's clearly still heartbroken and confused. That made me feel wary. Atlas is the type of woman that gives you the idea that she is an open book. She'll tell you what she likes to eat, where she's traveled, her favorite designer.. But I realized that until tonight, she's never mentioned her family or her past. I'm glad she did though, it explains a lot about why she does the things she does. Make sense? Of fucking course it does, I write for the Stone, bitch.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

I've never bothered to ask Atlas about herself. I feel like an asshole for knowing such little about her. I have to try remember that it's not all about me, and to be less of a selfish prick.


Is there anything you want to do differently?

More booze. It gets the conversation flowing.


Additional comments?

Does today also count as day 4, because I technically saw her today.. or do I have to actually follow through with date plans?

[cillian mcallister]

DAY 4 - Cillian McAllister

Did you see Atlas today?

Technically.


What did you do together?

I woke up hungover and freezing to my alarm clock going off on my phone. I was more than a half hour late for work, and as if Monday mornings weren't bad enough, my hangover was treating me to an explosive headache. Atlas wouldn't wake up, literally wouldn't budge, I even flicked water on her, and checked her pulse as I was afraid she was dead. So I put on my prince charming pants and carried her to her bed, as well as quickly tidied the rooftop. I had to suffer through the walk of shame, and sent an apologetic text to Atlas, asking her if we could do lunch rather than dinner as I presumed I'd be working late. She agreed to that date plan, we quickly ate at The Combine Eatery, we both had delicious fish tacos and shared peanut butter cheesecake for desert. We made small talk, kissed goodbye, and I drowned myself in work till 7pm.


Did anything interesting happen?

We were both grouchy and short tempered today.. not very tolerable when it came to any conversation.

Did you learn anything new about Atlas?

She doesn't like when plans changed, and certainly doesn't like getting stood up. I half jokingly asked if we could skip seeing each other, since technically we already had and my workload was huge. She lost it. So I suggested lunch, which she was hesitant to agree. and gave me a hard time about it during our date.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

I really fucking hate Mondays.


Is there anything you want to do differently?

I don't know.


Additional comments?

Fuck this, I'm tired.

[atlas leblanc]

DAY 4 - Atlas LeBlanc

Did you see Cillian today?

If you want to call it that.


What did you do together?

Depends which segment of the day you're talking about. After midnight last night we were still up, on the rooftop. I woke up around five and he was still there, flash forward seven hours and I was in my bed with no recollection of how I got there. Eden said it was Cillian's doing, so that was sweet of him. Waking up alone unexpectedly sucks, but imagine doing so on a freezing cold rooftop? Ultimate awful morning.. Anyway. He requested we do lunch instead of dinner, told me to hurry. I opted against going to my first class - because who wants to sit through lecture starving? - and agreed. I got lost on the way there, which hasn't happened in years, but I have no idea how the fuck he found this place. That cut twenty minutes of the time he had set for lunch. So we ate quickly, talked a little, and said bye.


Did anything interesting happen?

You see someone's true colors when they're tired and not in the mood. I don't know that that's interesting, but it definitely happened.


Did you learn anything new about Cillian?

Cillian usually isn't the most irritable of people, but over lunch he seemed it. Everything was hurried, conversation, lunch, desert, goodbyes. I get that people have to work but like by New York state law you are promised an hour lunch break a day so that was stupid. It made the real world just look unappealing.

Also! I think he might be a liar. He's always going on about how he just sits there at work and watches YouTube and spins around in his stupid chair, so I don't know what the big deal about going in late was, and why he felt the need to carry on for such activities hours after his day should end. Aka, he clearly has other plans later.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

Frantic or not I'm sure I'm a pleasure to be around.


Is there anything you want to do differently?

Not off the top of my head, no.


Additional comments?

At least my Monday night is free!

[atlas leblanc]

DAY 5 - Atlas LeBlanc

Did you see Cillian today?

Unfortunately.


What did you do together?

We met when he got off work at Liqueteria, I wanted to hypocritically jump on the bandwagon, and needed someone to go with me. He downright refused to give in to the fad, but after plenty of begging tried my ‘Mean Green’, which was, actually like, amazing. Then we walked to the animal shelter on 23rd. I’d always walked past but had never gone in, and I don’t think he had either. There was a ton of weird paperwork to fill out; I guess they want to make sure everyone walking in is serious. We bull shitted through that, and wandered the place. It’s like a fucking zoo for the damaged and diseased. It smelt like shit too, literally, which I guess should have been expected. And the dogs were fucking wild. Luckily there was a lot going on so once we got there it was easy to pretend I couldn’t hear what he was saying and ignore. Until there was a wild pit bull that scared the living fuck out of me and I was forced to hide behind him like a two year old! It gave me a panic attack, literally, so I had to get out of there. He seemed a bit annoyed, but offered to walk me home anyway. I declined the offer as politely as I could, and there was a sufficiently awkward him going in for the lips me giving him the cheek kiss goodbye.


Did anything interesting happen?

Cillian asked why I was being such a bitch, and I told him I was just on my period. I think it was too much information for him. I’m not even, but the look on his face was priceless. It’ll be funny when he wants to fuck in two weeks too, and I actually am and have to look like I have menstrual problems and imbalanced hormones.


Did you learn anything new about Cillian?

He’s a total softie when it came to some of these dogs. Puppies didn’t faze him, and they phase most. But he was mostly into the old and decrepit. I wonder if there’s any subliminal meaning to that.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

I’m not really one for animals, but some of them there made me so sad. If I could have in the moment, I’d have taken a few home. It’s like that Sarah McLachlan commercial, just makes you want to cry!


Is there anything you want to do differently?

I should probably learn to say what’s bothering me in the moment. There were plenty of opportunities to tell him that I was just pissed because he was caught in his lies, but ok, really, this is day five, no one’s pulling the crazy card just yet.


Additional comments?

It’s just one of those things where when you’re told you have to do something, then you don’t want to. It’s also one of those things where boys are cheats and liars.

+ Blondes are 23403492x better than redheads.
(Just making sure we all get the memo)

[cillian mcallister]

DAY 5 - Cillian McAllister

Did you see Atlas today?

Yep.


What did you do together?

Today we got to do what I wanted, and I might sound a bit spoiled by saying that.. but literally these past few days have been all Atlas (and in hindsight, today actually ended up being all about her also). I've been wanting a dog for a while, I've been spending hours on the Petfinders iphone ap favoriting dogs I potentially want. I can't really get one, because my situation's a bit up in the air, but window shopping etc. Off to the pound we went. She ended up bailing when this perfectly sane, lovable pit bull jumped on the cage for some lovin. His tail was wagging, I don't get what the big deal was, clearly she won't be dog sitting. She doesn't fill the requirements. Anyway, Atlas left and I went home with a dog.


Did anything interesting happen?

She was awkward. And by awkward, I mean she had a fairly large stick up her ass. By stick I mean tree. I know why, but I won't outright say it because then it'd look as though I'm covering up a lie.

Did you learn anything new about Atlas?

I think she's waiting for me to bring up that bit of gossip, and I shan't!


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

When I want something, I usually can't deny myself said thing.

Is there anything you want to do differently?

No. I had a good day. Woke up. Had some poptarts. Saw my favorite girl. Got a dog. Shared some street meat with that dog. Went to petsmart. And then went home, and watched three hours of survivor man.


Additional comments?

[cillian mcallister]

DAY 6 - Cillian McAllister

Did you see Atlas today?

Suuuure did.


What did you do together?

We ended up going for dinner, we've been slacking on the actually 'dating' bit, I figured I'd actually make an effort. And by make an effort, I seriously fucking mean I did. I didn't get jazzed up like her, I was under dressed in comparison. But like fuck, dark wash jeans and a jacket is dressed up. I picked her up fancy chocolate, and wrote her an apology on this inside. I just about threw up it was so incredibly mushy. Atlas wore these shoes, that made her ass look fucking A, I think that was one of my favorite parts of the night. We went and ate at a fancy restaurant, where we ate fancy food, talked about fancy subjects, and where I fancily spilled wine all over the white tablecloth. I'm trying to think of crazy shit that happened, but other than the wine, things ran pretty smoothly. We got along, talked about each other, even played footsy under the table. Then I dropped her home.


Did anything interesting happen?

We had our first fight the night before, a complete misunderstanding.. and I suppose I hadn't been 100% honest on our lunch date. Anyway, we got in an argument over text message. Which is as dense as it sounds, because CAPLOCKS DON'T GET RAGE ACROSS. I cleared the air. .. Oh yea, we also had sex.

Did you learn anything new about Atlas?

It didn't take long to convince her that I wasn't lying. I think she has it in her head that I'm a good guy, or is less stubborn that she seems.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

I'm right shit at confrontation.

Is there anything you want to do differently?

No,

Additional comments?

Atlas and I have slept together before; while drunk, while bored. But this time it felt more open and honest, it caught me off guard. For the first time I'm thinking about where this project is heading.

[atlas leblanc]

DAY 6 - Atlas LeBlanc

Did you see Cillian today?

Yes. Insert emoji heart eyes.


What did you do together?

Cillian came to pick me up around 7:30, most definitely shocked that I was already ready. I on the other hand was pretty shocked at his put togetherness, thus far it's proving to be a rarity. I was more shocked at the little box in his hand, though. He brought some chocolates with a nice little 'I'm sorry' written under the lid. That's more than even boyfriends have done in the past, so I felt pretty bad for jumping to conclusions in the first place. We left shortly after, I still had no idea where we were going at this point, so I just followed his lead.. block after block after block. Finally we got to Beauty and Essex, and I was so excited I could have screamed. There are only a few places I want to go and have yet to, soo I got to cross that off the list. Major brownie points for good taste! You enter through a pawn shop, so I thought I was about to look real stupid overdressed, but through the back door was a whole other place. Super pretty, lightly dimmed, corner booth. We picked up right where we left off before my stupid insecurities, which was good since at that point I officially felt like the biggest idiot in America. Food was good, conversation was good, company was good, it was perfect. Afterward we went back to my place, he came up for awhile, then we called it a night.


Did anything interesting happen?

We had sex, which is only interesting because we had before, but not at all after starting this little shindig. It was better than before, there's some truth to the whole feelings behind things. I didn't want him to leave.


Did you learn anything new about Cillian?

He's cuter than he lets on. I thought the gesture was nice the night before, a surprise date, but I didn't expect him to actually deliver, and kind of go above and beyond. He's also either hard to stay mad at, a good liar, or smooth talker, maybe all three.. can't decide just yet.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

Cillian took it upon himself to point out that any sort of issue after five days is insane, so apparently I have a fucked mindset.


Is there anything you want to do differently?

Nope, wouldn't even take the shit fit back I suppose because it led to a good night.


Additional comments?

n/aaaaa

[atlas leblanc]

DAY 7 - Atlas LeBlanc

Did you see Cillian today?

Better believe it.


What did you do together?

We're going to twist things up a little bit for today's post, since what I did prior to seeing him, was for him. So it all counts as the same! First things first, I sent Eden off the The Bowery. Which you'd think she'd be excited about, but nope, was a total bitch, of course. But I wanted to do something nice for him, and somewhat celebrate making it a week. (one week, harder than it may seem) So it was well worth the bitch fit. What wasn't well worth it, was trailing six blocks with bags of groceries just as it's starting to get fucking freezing out. But I survived, got home, pulled up recipes, and gave cooking my first real attempting. Until Cillian got there earlier than expected, and the surprise wasn't even all set! So I had to force him to stay in my room until I was done. Creamy Italian chicken and pasta is way fucking harder than it sounds, too. But finally I finished it up, and he got to come out. I think he was a bit surprised that I'd actually attempted cooking. Since you know, I'm soooo conceited, self-centered, prissy, those sorts of girls don't cook. And I proved that I forced Eden out so we could have the place to ourselves. He claimed the dinner was really good, but it may have been a slight lie to make me feel better, which I'd be ok with it. He ate it all though, had a few glasses of wine, talked, made fun of me for lighting candles. We almost made it to the waffler desert I had planned, but there was a quick shift of events and we ended up in bed the rest of the night.


Did anything interesting happen?

We made a good deal of fun of ourselves for doing this in the first place. Kept it light.


Did you learn anything new about Cillian?

Over dinner there was a good game of 'never have I ever' going. We weren't too serious about it. The best to come out of it was my 'I've never slept with a woman between 40-50' - which he drank to. So. Perverted.


Did you learn anything new about yourself?

I might be better at cooking than I thought. I also could have sucked. Time will tell. Also there's a good deal of anxiety one gets while trying to impress someone with a skill they don't have!


Is there anything you want to do differently?

Negative.


Additional comments?

One week woooo.